my little family of three have gone through some major life changes over the past year - it seems now we're coming out on the other side of it all and i'd like to share... i've been a little scared, ashamed and hesitant until now. chris and i are getting divorced. i've said it before and i'll say it again, i try to keep our personal lives fairly private online, but this is a huge part of my life and who i am. marriage and children are life changing. we grew up and grew apart. no one gets married with the intent of getting divorced - i like to think that we tried our best to make it work, but sometimes it just doesn't pan out and that's okay.
it's been a painful process. deciding to call it quits was a long hard decision for us both. moving out of the house we brought aurora home to from the hospital and moving into two new homes was heartbreaking. the first night we slept at "my new place" she had a bit of trouble going to sleep and in the middle of our bedtime routine said "i wanna go home mama." a statement that i will never forget for the rest of my life. i thought my heart was going to stop beating. i know dramatic, but it stung. she's really handled the whole situation beautifully, she is a tough one - this kid.
co-parenting is a completely different beast than parenting under the same roof. you almost need to communicate more and that can be well, an issue in it's self. trying to get on the same page with some one that you no longer want to be with presents it's challenges. at the end of the day wether chris and i agree on everything or nothing, we share an indescribable love for our daughter and she is and always will be our number one priority. nothing else matters. we'll always be a family. we will remain very important people in each other's lives - just in a different capacity.